i admit

Salam

I admit yesterday, I lied to the person who asked for donations. Firstly dia tegur nk jual cd, utk rumah anak2 yatim..and the rest of the story u know. I told him it's ok (dgn harapan, silalah berlalu, sy mmg tidak mahu mmbeli pape). Lps tu, he said, taknk beli pun takpe, bleh derma. Again I said, takpe la, smbil geleng2. I know it's for good cause, tp hati tak rasa nk buat gitu. Lepas tu, again he sounded like he was urging me to donate, and I started to feel quite rimas. I said, I can't today, right now, and he bluntly asked.. "why?". Kene ke aku bagi reason? Kalau la kita bagi anything kat org dgn tak ikhlas, bdosa tak? I know dosa sbb nk marah kt org tu, tp what about causing people to get angry. I pun bluntly said, Sy tak bawak beg, dlm beg kain ni ada kunci, pen2 dsbgnya.. And he asked me, where I worked.. Ada kaitan? ada? ada?

Org2 yg sometimes mcm dh force kita to donate tu, tau tak mybe baru sebntar tadi ada org lain mintak donation. Kalau kita pusing satu shopping complex tu, mungkin ada 2-3 org yg mintak donation. Pnat la kita cmtu. I prefer to go to the boxes yg mmg dh sedia utk org donate. Perasan tak? dlm masjid, surau or even dekat kaunter time kita byr mkn. Kita bleh derma pada sesiapa yg susah. At my workplace, there are frequent visits from students yg nk wat kutipan derma, for any other purposes. Buat rumah la, derma kat org susah etc.
Sekarang, hati saya yg susah.. sbb sy dengan sukacitanya tipu, tak bwk purse.. daaah dose..