Episode "Love and Infatuation"

Why am I writing this? Tulah, org ckp. dah teringat, tulislah apa saja.. Kalau ingat resipi, selitkan resipi, if you rememberred jokes, then, do write it. Now, I feel like menceceh.

Back to the person I've mentioned before, whom I met during my UiTM days. I still remember VIVIDLY=jelas sesangat.. the "environment" where I met this person. What made "Angry Baboon" ( nama yg keji utk e-mail) so hard to forget? Well.. a few things...

Time tu, baru je daftar utk. degree. Although I studied in Shah Alam time Dip., time register degree is totally different. Everything has to be done on your own. Surely, heading to the 'famous' Business Faculty that was drab, dreary and gloomy time tu, was quite "de-motivating"'. Masuklah dlm Dewan Kuliah (DK) for taklimah. Terkonteng2 sorg2, I saw my ex-Dip-mate; Helmy. Sitting next to him was AB. Other people was'nt displaying friendly faces (maklumlah, dh jumpa gang msg2), but his fella smiled to me.. Pelik gak la, sbb tak kenal. I talked a bit to Helmy smbil bdiri and AB immediately said "Offerla mmbr tu duduk"hehee.. mmg I seldom guys offer me a seat (how pathetic is that?) Thanks.. (dlm ati, tetiba rasa hppy..huarh huarh...) I think I did asked where AB came from? Arau katanya, ok.. then, taklimat and that was it.

Untill a few days later, I went to Business School's Cafe (tempat yang sentiasa berbau sos Lea&Perrins abg burger kt situ).. there, ada muka yg familiar tersenyum.. Hmm.. I said "Hi! err" (alamak, aku lupa namanya). But SURPRISINGLY he fluently said.. "Azwa kan?".. WOW.. I was thinking nak buat somersault ke, cartwheel or just prancing around time tu gak.. tak sangka.. he remembered my name? It's like.. Kuch Kuch Hota Hai...hins hins... aku hopeless tetiba (pls note, exaggerated expression IS my thing..)

Unfortunately being a former Bus. student, AB proceeded to the 3rd sem, while I was placed in the 2nd sem class. Byk gak bumped into@ sengaja bumped into AB. Kinda started to like AB. Tp bak kata lecturer ku.."we fell in love everday.. It's infatuation bukan the real stuff".. meh aku tgk kamus.. mendapa maknanya..INFATUATED=filled with foolish or unreasoning love. Ye arh tu.. so, AB became my motivator.. Some of the things that made me hang out in my school.

Peeps; accomplice to bump into AB

I knew hw. AB walked, the pants dia pakai, even sandal buruknyer dari jauh, clothes that he will wear (I mean.. I knew dia pnyer rotation ok? ) arini kaler apa, tomorow red.. the next day green..etc.. SERIOUSLY. It's not that I had it scheduled dlm mana2 notebook.. aware gile. Met several times in the PTARII (Perpustakaan Tun Abdul Razak), but always end up in a long conversations.

After a few conversations, we've found out we had much in common.. (ya, ya, tau, ni mmg slalu org ckp.. but let me.. it's my space anyway..) Books(terpakai), theater being his interests. Bende yg paling best adalah, i always said that "madonna is a true entertainer in her shows" and tht's in my head. Tp 1 day while lepak at mamak's with Madonna on MTV, he said the exact same thing. How cool @ weird? is that? Byk bende2 yg dipinjam dr dia, buku2, even tajuk report degree pun dtg. dari suggestion dia. If I talked abt our signature that looks similar, then, I'll be making a silly statement. Just like Ina Naim yg ckp. baju pink dlm IC dia sama warna baju laki dia dlm IC. Kebetulan je la I assumed.. tp I like these coincidences.. and always hoping these coincidences continuously happen. Knowing I learnt Deutcsh, he always says Ich Liebe Dich... that means wo ai ni.. camne nak react? Well, I kept my cool.. and simply replied.. "be careful of what you wish and said.. Cause u just might get it.."

He passed away in 2005, and I knew tht wish did'nt happened. It's been...what.. like almost 3 yrs lebih. still, the vivid image and memory lingers.. I am not hanging on old puppy love (realizing I'm not a pup kan..) just reminiscing a person who has made an impact of how I view Love and Infatuation.

Ida; another accomplice? A bystander laa..

Losing the Ones You Love

This is something tht has been on my mind for quite some time...

Tatkala duduk melepak sorg2 with nothing to do, selalu teringat insan2 yang kita sayang & ingati but no longer here. Allah love them more. I've lost individuals who were dear to me somer years back. 2 being my immediate family and another one.. a person i only knew for a short while but has made such an impact to my heart and how i view certain aspect of love and infatuation.

2 immediate family members was my dad and another was my sister. Losing them has made me realized that all this while I have'nt been a good daughter and particularly..a good sister. All that I can do now is to pray for them, ask Allah to place them amongst those blessed. To those reading this (wonder if it's only me opening this column) make sure we are treating everyone as we should. Sometimes, we might have hurt their feelings, with words and actions.. so, pls right away appologize. Who knows esok, lusa, either kita yg dipanggil dulu...

Pekan Reminiscence..

Tonite there's going to be a dinner.. held by our generous employr.. bukan slalu mkn free.. anyways.. thanx.

From wht i've heard, there's going to be a few treats dr each Program kat kolej.. UPM, UITM, UTM, MGt.. etc.. Funny how geng2 ku tidak ada pengetahuan psl sesapa involved... mklumla.. everybody is busy with audit. Tp to those yg masuk persembhn ni.... my full support and applauses to them..

teringat dulu dinner kat Pekan.. Sempat sekali je.. let's say it's sort of parting pnyer dinner.. bfore relocated to ktn. Kira hands on experience laa.. ceh, mcm busy jer nk organize.. pdhal, mmber2 lain lagi besar responsiblitynyer... i was in charged of sponsors.. carik takde la beria sgt, tp Alhamdulillah.. ada gak. Can tampung a bit.. and pd yg lupa, kita smpat gak la ada mini2 jamuan lps tu.. heheee... (mcm bunyi underground activity je kan)

Mlm dinner that was at Grand Continental.. Unit Pengurusan ni.. buat dikir brt.. huh.. presented using 2 hindi songs.. Ni plan tak beria sgt, tp it worked!! Kira creativity tu ada la gak.. ada yg wat monolog.. nyanyi la seposen dua..

One thing i remembered is that i just ate one plate of salad.. sibuk la bagi hadiah la..ntoh buat menda tah lagi.. balik umah, carik nasik gak.. Yg best, tgk slide yg danny prepare.. Sedih gok.. To those who still hv the "mulanya di sini" cd's... tgk2 la balik.. dpt reminiscing episode2 lama.. smbil mengenang kembali muka2 yg saat itu masih lagi kecik dan baju2 yg masih lagi muat..hee

Percubaan ke?

Today, i successfully blogged in... short term memory results in me changing my password.. again.. sheesh..

Yesterday, I went to Pasar Ramadhan (hmm.. atau lebih mesra dipanggil param) at Stadium.. dok beh langsung.. pusing, and pusing.. back and forth.. and end up buying mihun.. sungguh tak bernas, memandangkan smlm hari yg sungguh sungguh lapor. Pastu mula regret.. kalu mihun, goreng sdiri pun bleh. This is the scenario when i go to any pasar mlm or any param.. indecisive on wht to buy. Sometimes, kagum gak dgn apa yg org lain ngidam. if only i can make food choices easily..

Tgh mlm, finished watching criminal minds... siap blasah tgk crite chow sing chi.. aka.. stephen chow (nama glamer), ingat nak menelaah soalan2 lepas..(wonder who should menelaah kan?), tp no mood.. end up watching a korean movie...not bad.. not bad at all. Slept at 2 pagi tadi.. and woke up at 4.30 for sahur.. smpai la skarang.. wht did i do tadi? watching another movie.. citer cina plak.. warlords... i can conclude tht it is to me a good story..

Usually after watching movies... kepala otak akan berangan.. imagining things.. and often the imagination starts with.. "what if" questions.. bila kita tgk cerita ceriti la, our minds starts putting ourselves in the shoes of the actors.. maklumla, mcm tadi, tgk citer, sumenyer cantik.. pelakon, baju, everything.. nk dpt sendiri payah.. so imagine je laa..

This is me... berangan.. Time validasi kat jengka lu.. sempat gak kan? One of my flaw gak la ni.. During my schooldays, i even got scolded psl berangan... Huh.. mmg patut la resulted in public canning.. Nama pertama yg dipanggil (the downside of naming your kids with As), nama tu dipanggil dulu.. haha.. Well, i was never an excellent student anyway..

better get going now.. my students will finsh their test in a while.. kene la org yg tak excellent ni, mengajor bebudak, how NOT to become like me. Adios

Just messing around

Alhamdulillah, we live for another day..

Quite a while since I've posted anything here... Again, trouble signing in this page.. Pehal la dgn aku yg tak hingat2 pasword etc.

Last week my friend and I went to adik's wedding (Yus' family is in Kerteh). Ida and me carpooled (or preferably carfooled) dgn Wani and Man.(thanks guys).

Arrived early gak laa.. time2 org baca nikah.. Saw Yus all pretty in her baju nikah.. and mata yg kecik2 je tgk kami.. Huh, patut laa... lupa nak pakai contact lense. Maybe trus tak nampak muka "husband" ahaks time gabra nak baca nikah.

Ni gambar dia time dicuit2, bila kami smpai.. bukannya nmpk sgt, tp smpat posing.. If u r photogenic, amik gambor dgn sarung guni pun ok. Unlike yours truly.. foto'kemik' laa..

Went back before her next sanding.. Maklum, lepas Jumaat, sure dah petang, nak balik Ktn lagi. Me and Ida thought of lepak'ing at her house before the wedding, but due to certain circumstances... we could'nt. Kesian, penat 4 beradik tu, dgn parents dia skali.. Sesapa yg kenduri, tau la camne tirednye.. and melepek nye kerja2 gini.

Sat, went to Amli's.. Dah change scenery la Amli .. New colleagues.. Hopefully he'll be working happily there.. That Sat, met some friends,(old ones and current.) Nice laa. Tak sempat nak borak2 apa sgt. What I can say is, changes happen, and we just have to deal with it..

Think that's all for now.. Like what I've mentioned before, I am not a good writer, no interesting story telling, experience or information sharing.. just jotting down what's in my head.

Not the usual blogger..

Salam.. to all those yg sudi mmbuka laman ini..(like it's going to be updated all the time..huh) i m not a self-proclaimed blogger. Tadi nk post menda nak tulis pun, terkial2 carik link. McZue asked me if I have my own blog.. well, I do.. it's just I don't know how to frequently update it..heheh.. ni rajin la ni, aku mnulis Zue..

BTW, thanks for congratulating me ye D6 (it took me some time gak to figure out your initial ni... thought it's some kinda durian or what laa).. One thing that I know, u were the one yg started this blogging fever here kan? and a good one you are.

Err.. patut ke aku tepek sume aku tulis kat sini ke, kena post comment? Hehe.. ikut suka la kan.. sindiri yg buat..

Aufwiedersehen..

(PS: fuh.. try tepek picture. berjaya la gamaknya... sukses.eh, mini sukses

Trial and Error..

Today I started something that is quite unfamiliar.. but yet paksarela "Blogging". Due to my desire to post comments to some of my friends..

Did one account just now, but dah terlupa how to access.. stupidos. Punyela tak retis. Anyways, ni trial time, and error la yg byk. Till later.