So Bold

Salam.. again..

This afternoon in class, I was stunned to hear one student asked me " Miss, tak bwk roti kene kerit tikus arini". As if luka lama berdarah kembali, I stood in silence for a while.

The "roti" incident refers to last friday where as always, I brought some things to munch.. sharing2 lagi sronok. So, in the ziplock bag was roti john yg tlh dikoyakkan. Maklumla.. among member2, tak pyhla nk potong2. One student came, as I was opening the bag..and he said.."Miss bwk apa?, I ckp roti, He replied.. mcm kene kerit tikus je" I replied " aku tutup balik la.. baru ingat nk offer". Then another student came.. asking apa dia. The first boy mentioned that I brought something that looks like it has been eaten by a rat. I told the 2nd boy.. never mind.. I was thinking to offer anybody who came for something to munch, tp bila org dh ckp mcm tu.. takpela (bukan merajuk, tp tersinggung). The 2nd boy said, "Takpe Miss, bgi sy, and he took it". And said" sdp je" ha.. tu la, aku tau sdp sbb free...

Back to the 1st mentioned scene.. I said to the boy in class, "Ali (takde pun budak aku nama ali smpai arini, alejandro pun takdop), I won't say that kind of thing to anyone tau". He replied "tp, memang mcm kene gigit tkus kan Miss?" I said, " It doesn't matter how it looks, but if you offered me anything, I wouldn't dare say things like that".. It is so..... (nk ckp je kurang ajor), but I replaced it with.."inappropriate".. huh..nk marah gak.. tp sbb nk marah, tkuar english.. blagak dan riak gayanya.. and.. the 2nd boy who tasted the bread said "ish..Miss takdok bawok lg ke? Sedak tuu". haha.. nk gelak pun ada.. Tp wat kering je time tu.

I realize lama dh budak2 ni ada batch yg kurang asam, ada yg ok dan sangat ok. Tp it's a bit challenging when it comes to having to teach some manners to them. Btullah, compared to us, when we were young, when mums just stare and bulatkan mata kat kita, right there and then, kita akan terkedu and will stop doing what we were doing. Dah tau ada benda tak btul. But if it's kids nowadays.. kita bulat2 kan mata, or even if our eyes popped out, sumbat balik dlm soket pun, tak pasti they will realize their wrongs..

Biru

Yes.. for today it's blue. Enough said...hoho.. Gementar org melihatnya..

Moments

Certainly everybody has their embarrassing moments, and I sure have. A few, or many of it. One I can recall is sliding on the road on the way to the Business Faculty. Turun2 bas.. jalan masuk simpang and slide..... Ramai plak walking to class.. but they ignored me. Takpela.. I can get up on my own.. Tercalar bum takpe.. tercalar prasaan kott.. Ish2, I pitied myself, and quite pelik knp org wat dekk. I should've wiped my forehead smbil ckp "Nasib baik smpat duduk.. Pnat btul rasa".. huh..A few weeks later, a fellow student, a girl slipped at the same spot. I was behind her.. helped her to get up (which she wat derkk plak) and I asked her if she's ok.. (which she replied with a sprint forward). Eh, aku plak malu sbb tanya beria. Tak patut, tak patut.

Have you ever hi'ed (sudah hai) anybody but it ends up you're saying hi to some strangers. Indeed it was embarrassing. I accidentally (sbb my action was unexpected: by me!) hi to one school senior a few years ago. I was so confident she looked like that and still looks like that today! I went up to her, asking how she was doing.. and mentioned her name too. She just shrugged and replied, she wasn't that friend. I was so and still confident it was her, but I just said sorry and informed she looked like that particular friend. Budak bilik aku dulu tuuu... takkan aku tak knal. Anyways, when I got back, I suddenly remembered, my senior a.k.a. my ex roommate has a twin. And that person I helloed doesn't even bother nk mention nih???? Tak patutttt..

Tu tak kira lagi recent events, in the hall. The students were so busy shaking our hands, salam2 sbb dpt jumpa blk for pre-convos. I was sitting on one of those auto flip chairs cam dlm wayang tu. This one girl, asyek hulur2 tgn nk slm, and she was on the front row. She couldn't reach me, so I got up a bit, salam and sat.. on the floor. Aduh.. kalau la I could turn to liquid, I would liquify myself and seep through the carpet.

One incident happened while I was on a friend's ride to KL. He gave me a lift together with his guy friend and his mother. They talked about a well-known nasi lmk restaurant. His mother said our PM loves eating there, and tmpat ni glamer.. I decided to be talky and state my point of view, which include " sy rasa takde sdp mana pun tmpt tu", "glamer je lbih kot", and masak nasi lemak sdiri berganda sedapnya". Lo and behold, my friend made a pit stop there, and his friend said "Mak suka kan makan nasi lemak sini?". hukhuk.. me and my mouth.

During my studies, a lecturer treat us for hi-tea at a hotel. Only a few of us were invited and he booked the whole floor. Hebatnya perasaan time tu. I was with my friends... discussing how deliciou the pastries and buns were. So, being a very bjimat cermat persons, we also discussed on ways to smuggle the swirly pastry with raisins which we simply call "Madonna's Boobs". (Kalau sesapa la masih ingat madonna perform pakai lingerie yg mcm time tunnel). So, while we were secretly discussing, our hands is putting the roti inside my friends bag. Sambil2 tu, while performing 'smuggling' action, this dear friend said " eh, jangan la obvious sgt".. right then tgn waiter mencelah antara kami smbil tersenyum menuang air.. Byk jugak ketika2 yg bongek mcm ni.. ni baru sikit

4 Feb

Today wasn't a really great day for me. Yes, I did meet my long time friend today, and yes, it was wonderful, but this Subuh, I got a very sad news. However, due to some circumstances, I couldn't make it to comfort those people affected by the news. I wasn't by those people today. I felt terrible. However, Mum is still priority and anything I do or I'm going to do needs her consent. She didn't have to say anything, just by seeing her response, I know her decisions and what's on her mind. But today, I felt a bit useless. I feel that I wasn't able to ease any problems. This, I still feel up till now.

CANGKUL

I totally blanked when it comes to working on this particular documentation. I know that there are others who are swarmed with much more documentations than me, but then, I think I speak on their behalf too. Totally blanked and I think my vision is also affected due to mistakes in simple calculations:

Quizzes - 10%
Tests - 10%
Assignment - 10%
Project - 10%
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Total 50%...

My maths teacher would be devastated if he and she knows 10x4=50. sheeeshkebab!! No wonder I got cangkul for maths.